|doesn't matter if anyone else uses this...
||[Apr. 7th, 2004|10:07 pm]
I don't care that I'm the only person that posts here...
I had a dream about Steve, the firs boy I ever loved, last night. I haven't even thought about him in a while. Anyways, I was at his house, and him mom and aunt were there and I was really upset, and they were really upset becasue Steven died (I don't know how...) and in the dream, I put on one of his t-shirts because it smells like him, and a couple of other people do too... and Steven new girlfriend (I don't know if he really has a girlfriend or what but in my dream he did) and like, she was sad, but not nearly as sad as me. and like, in the dream, everyone was telling me how bad they felt for me, and kept giving me hugs, but not her. Even though they were the ones that were actually dating, and Steven and I had not been together for years.
... I need to write Steven a letter, he's in Iraq, and suddenly I miss him a lot. a LOT. I hope he's ok... I'm going to pray for im tonight, because I dont want this dream to be anything but a dream...
Private Stephan Ross Holt... keep him in your prayers. <3